on sunday kier and i had to run 20 miles. t.w.e.n.t.y. miles. the task honestly just seemed insurmountable. so after stuffing our faces with subway (not the best idea), and getting lost on the way, we finally made it to the american tobacco trail. we plotted our run and began. we turned right onto the trail, instead of the desired left, and quickly found ourselves in the middle of the wilderness; yes, durham has a wilderness. about a mile into the run i felt ursula reach up from the ground below and latch on to my foot. okay, maybe it was just a little underground (or not-so-underground) wire. it's grip was too tight and i knew i had no hope. at this point i was running with two water bottles and on my way down the only thing i did was throw those water bottles against the ground, my body following soon after. needless to say, kier and i were laughing uproariously for approx 7 minutes, in which we both might've peed our pants a little. but for the rest of the nineteen miles i could not get the image of me throwing down my water bottles out of my head.
last night at tuesday night worship we sang the song rescue. a of all, get dat song in muh belly. so obsessed. but as i was singing,
"falling on my knees in worship, giving all i am to seek your face. Lord, all i am is yours",
the image of the water bottles quickly returned. and i realized, the lord was trying to teach me something. yes, it did take me days and days to realize, but i finally got it. in order to fall on my knees in complete surrender to god, it means i have to get ready of everything i am currently clinging to. i needed to not just let go of the wat botts but throw them down, in order for me to catch myself in enough time before i hit the ground. the lord asks this of us.
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us." hebrews 12:1.
not trying to take the running analogy too far but i just love that the lord is using my marathon training to train me in him! i pray that he shows me just what sin and idolatry i am having difficulty throwing off so that i can fall on my knees in worship.
Wow that's cool! I feel the same way about letting go of things. On my way home tonight from tyler's house I pulled up to my driveway and a good song was on 106.7. I didnt want to turn the car off, so I just sat there for a minute listening to the song. I decided that I would go cruising up to Wal-Mart and listen to some more music on 106.7. It seemed as though God was trying to break through to me and tell me something. I know he could have probably told me anywhere, but my gut instinct just said to go out to walmart, Well I did and I'm very glad, God showed me how to help let go of something in my life that has been hindering me and entangling me in sin. Of course I randomly stumble upon this blog as I am checking up on my friends right after the car ride =)
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